i really need to say this to you. if you read this one day that is. but i know you will and i hope you find this post and know it's you.
girl, sometimes we all have to grow up. and some point or another. i'm not sayin i'm all matured and everything, but we HAVE to be independent. We just cant rely on other people all our lives. At some point, we've got to work on our own. Recently, you called me like thrice in the morning and i was still sleeping cause of a hectic day before, me thinking it was some sort of emergency called you back immediately. When i called all you wanted to know was the amount of postage needed for letters. I mean, come on. I don't mean to be rude but, the first thing that came to my mind was DO I LOOK LIKE A POSTMAN TO YOU? to some out there it may just be a scene where a friend wants to know smth and i'm overeacting and stuff but trust me, it's not the first. I've like reached my boiling point of whatever you may call it. GROW UP. and you're like way older than me by 8mths? this is super obvious by now. I am very sorry. thousand apologies to you girl and you may call me a coward cause i dare not say this in front of your face. But this has got to stop. Although i know you may have certain difficulties and you cannot approach others because of secrets others don't know but don't abuse it. Know your limits. I don't mean to be a bad friend or want to break up our friendship but I just want to help you, well, grow up and learn how to be responsible for your own life and take charge. Have a mind on your own. Ok, since i'm super in to this right now i might as well add others such as times when we were supposed to go out, confirmed and everything, i hate it when you call me with your pathetic voice and say "Will you be alright if i say cancel the whole thing?" wth. i'm like outside on my way, you call me near 5 to 10 mins before the meeting time to tell me cancel it? the best thing, you ask me if it's alright! hell what can i say? no it's not alright and get your butt down immediately. of course i'm not alright. it's not the first time.the first time you told me that i was seriously understanding and said alright, only to roam the streets alone and go home afterwards. the next few times were irritating. i swear. that is why you don't see or hear from me to go out with you, even if it's a group outing i'd rather tally with the rest. the experience seriously sucks. thank god i have other friends too who's so into imprompto shopping.
WHO WILL YOU TOUCH? WHO WILL TOUCH YOU?
God, grant me peace and serenity right now and to be forgiving onto others. tho they do not mean it at times, let me be more understanding and patient. i really need strength to carry on. i feel so heated up everytime i think about your character. it's seriously... i give up. you can say i have qualms about your behaviour. maybe it's just you. you've changed a lot.and i've changed to be less understanding too. i would not be so cruel to let you take the whole blame because i'm less understanding now.
the future is so unpredictable that's what makes it interesting and fun to look forward to.
slow down you're going too fast the dance is slow, the beat wont' last take your time to smell the flowers and appreciate all that's going around you sometimes when we travel, we think too much about our destination and forget about our surroundings. take your time slow down, we're going too fast.
