At this point of time in the morning, I do not exactly know what made me create a blog. Years ago when this blog-wave hit singapore i thought to myself that i would not end up like one of them. Not that blogging is a bad habit or anything but rather i thought at that point of time, blogging is an online diary and since to me diaries are a kind of personal thoughts and feelings, i decided not to blog. But then again, it is definitely a great way to keep in touch with the people around me, people whom i cherish and respect. It started with a friendster blog (http://dah-neese-rum-raisin.blogs.friendster.com/simplicity/) that remained personal and now i've advanced another step and to blog well on a blog. Ok that's lame.
But then right now it's a turning point in my life and i'd like to record down the phases that i'm going thru so as to take note of the things and hurdles i've gone thru in life. Every thing that happens happen for a reason. I'm a strong believer of that phrase. And so since this will be the greatest turning point in my life i shall just sit back and let things fall in my way. Je ne sais quoi, just emotes so well i decided to use it as a blog name. Maybe months down the road i may regret that name but well at least it'll remind me of what happened here and now.
I really have too many things to say.
I do not know where to start.
But I know i will.
Eventually.
I think i'll end here and have a good night's rest. For i'm working now. My first job ever. The thought of making your own money really perks me up. Beats me but YAR! kudos to money and shopping. I do not think i can live without either one.
Someday.
p.s I think i created this blog cause i needed an outlet to really 'talk'. Esp if it's those inner most feelings. But nonetheless, the sole source was someone whom actually gave me the strength to carry on. When i'm feeling down and out especially when it comes to studying you gave me the perserverence. At first I didn't know you existed but there comes a point in my life where you were like a goal to me because you were living my dream. I wanted so badly to be like you. But then again, it's because i'm not like you that made me ME. i'm confused but i do know that when the distractions set in for my exams you were my end point. That is why i would be really sad if i could not live my dream.
You made things clear when things were blur. You gave me hope when i was down. Here and now i want you to know That it really is useless cause i'm just another person. A Helpless one. A lost one.
Someone whose name you do not even know, i think. But I definitely put you up on a pedestal so high I almost couldnt reach you.
je ne sais quoi.
deep in my heart i hope you feel the same too. but deeper down i know this can never be.
