HAPPY BURTHDAY SAM!
i used white so you could see it dedicated to you.

This will not happen in Singapore. ok. maybe in the near future. for the geeks. i'm gonna eat my words

now god has closed all doors and there's no hope.
life is draggy and wasted.
hope was given and hope was lost.

there's no such thing as a chance.

i cancel what i said earlier on.
life has to go on. just that it's at a really slower pace right now.

i wanna shut myself out from this world. away from everything.
away from life.
away from energy.
away from ... sucesses.


when i needed to talk to you the most, you're overseas.
why.
i can turn to no one now.
my life's plan is screwed i know.
flawed cause there's no more backup.

why bring me to this stage only to abandon me and leave me here hanging.

i need answers and i want them.
ok. i'm not really shut out from routes or anything but rather, i dont wanna tread on them.
and for the last time, i do NOT want to be a teacher, so please stop repeating those words of yours. anybody seriously.

gosh. my first hundred posts and i sound so depressed.o k. i am.

Labels: Desperate and numb

the whole system is screwed, flawed, everything!
a student with ABCE cant enter the 3 local universities, let alone me!
including the recent addition of the UNSW students, competition is even higher than before.
but isnt it unfair if the 3 universities give priority to the UNSW students instead of local students like us whom placed preference to the local Us as first choice?

i see no logic in this.
it's super unfair if they offer places to them first instead of us, just to cover up the government's faults.
it's their fault and we're facing the consequences for them.
where's justice in this.
and because of this, students will have to wait another month til july in order to ensure themselves a space here in the 3 local universities.
this is super unfair. i hate the system.

and it'll be worst for the younger generation. looking at them lugging their huge backpacks and the content that they're already studying, they'll be smarter than degree holders in years to come. don't you think it's a bit overboard? you're making average students look dumb.
what the hell. i'm wasting my life, my youth, away over some other people's faults and misjudgement. actually it's partly my fault too. but they made things worst.

Labels: frustrated

it's an infinite roller coaster ride. forever seemingly going down. fast and before i can catch my breath, i'm down in the pits, lowest ever, rock bottom. why is this so? haha. different contributing factors.

friends. just when you think you have em' it's gone.
facade. what a nice word that seems so appropriate now.

fake friends that say they undersatnd you.
fake friends that act so nice before you.
fake friends that tell you to calm down and not to worry cause you have a shoulder.
it's all just with the motion.
why say things that are not from the heart?

tho' it's only msn, i can feel that vibe coming from you.
of all the people i expected, i thought you'd be happy for me.
guess i wasnt wrong. i should have gone with my first impression feelin all this while.
what's wrong? i'm living for myself. i need not see your face.

now i know how a particular friend feels.
down and out.
no on to talk to.
no one you can really trust and rely on.
maybe it's because we have the same personality and when you told me you were feelin'
emo-ish, you passed it to me. don't worry i'm not blaming you.

when i was thinking of you before i slept last night, i wanted to tell you what my mum had once said to me.
"as long as we(your parents) love you, and God loves you too, we don not need anything else in the world. all is secondary. with these few people loving you, you can call yourself being loved"
i thought these were words of wisdom. especially when you're down.
where are all of them when you need em.
i feel really used. only coming to me when you're down. what am i your talk line?
not that i mind but, cant you share happiness as well?

Will life be better later on in life? cause this is supposed to be like your best age, the best time in your life. But why are these happening? it's the ups and downs i know but still??? sigh
i need to consider our friendship. cause i dont wanna act fake and all in front of you when i'm hating you to death in my heart. but you can be really nice at times. were you sad then when i talked to you that you reacted in that way? or was that your true colours...

should i approach you? cause i know if i do and the result is the opposite and i'm just thinking too much, being a very overly sensitive person, you'll look at me in a different light now cause i thought of you that way. what should i do.

Labels: do i?

needs picking up.
wonders for today why is it easier to console someone else but not yourself.

Labels: :(/:)

I Love the Clothes from Paris!Working at the boutique made me materialistic for pretty clothes!
Gisele Bundchen looks HOT! here.
I love chatting with KY. look at our nicks. haha
My pirate drink! comes free with 2wo tattoos.and i get to keep the stirrer thingamajig.
Another EarthQuake!
free tattos! haha.


CHECK THIS OUT! note for kids. DO NOT watch this unless your englanto is AR!!!!
http://youtube.com/watch?v=tWgxuc45YCY
salty sea dog. me hearty.you wench!
booty is butt and nuthin' else.
ahoy mates! land ho! me denise HO! hahahahaha.
francine's making me mad. aliiteration! her name should start with "M". it'll be complete.
Mancine's Making Me Mad!
Muahahaha!

Labels: had a BLAST. to infinity and beyond

i must be mad to buy like 3 books at one go.
this is what shopping spree and member cards do to me. sigh.
my photouploadingtool is nuts. i'm bored.

Baby that's why you captured my heart
I know sometimes you feel
Like you don't fit in
And this world doesn't know
What you have within
When I look at you
I see something rare
A rose that can grow anywhere

Labels: You're the Right Kind of Wrong

Labels: Drama

You Are 19 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

darn. a phone call is making me panicky.
what shall i do.
what can i do.
how can i prepare myself for this.
interview.
at least someplace wants me.
i think.

shit. and it's tomorrow. how how how.

panic.

give me strength



you're coming back today at like 4.35. i'll be there! it's shopping spree tomorrow!!!

Happy Birthday Godma!
May God Bless You Always.

What Your Hands Say About You

You are logical, analytical, and rational. You have good verbal skills. Bold and daring, you're not afraid to change your life if you think it needs an overhaul. Practical and down to earth, you're a doer not a dreamer. You rather get something done than think about it all day. Your emotions tend to be nervous and potent. Your energy - both positive and negative - deeply impacts your life.

You Are a Classic Beauty!

You have a timeless beauty that looks great in every decade Instead following trends, you stick to what works And this means you never skimp on your beauty routine Upside? Your classic looks tends to attract gentlemen - not boys.

Labels: cadera

Labels: You're the Right Kind of Wrong

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KEITH BARRY'S the MAN!

work's cool. i just realised that the shop i thought was ah-lain-ish turned out pretty nice if you'd know where to look. i mean. ok ok. it's strictly a collection of clothes from italy, france and paris and they're officially designer wear. so... that will make me up to date with fashion huh. the clothes are so so so nice. i didnt realised this before and i kinda like a few pieces. but people, dont step into the shop unless you're willing to pay like min 75 bucks for a tee shirt or 128 for a long sleeve one.

JUS d'ORANGE people. only ONE more day and i'm off! weee... spend those cash! not to mention, cousie is bringin back pieces for me from BKK! yay!

on the way to church i saw delia and kelly neo. i couldnt recognise them til i had 2nd looks. delia looks very very very different and i'm so afraid i'd call out delia and the stranger would be like HUH ?!?. then i saw kelly at church! haha. she looks really pretty now. and yes, i do mean pretty. gu-niangy pretty. haha. well, she's not in dresses or skirts but it's def a drastic change to her you know OLD ways. haha

tata~ i'm off to sleep./

p.s. i forgot to note! jason is super super super hot cute whatever in real life! yes. it's the green ranger man i'm talking about. he looked super cute when he was eating!

Labels: had a BLAST. to infinity and beyond

drained

Labels: tired and hungry

i'm so happy that i forgot to blog about mummsie's day!
this year's too cool! i'm becoming a even fatter pig ready for the abattoir. haha

anyway, i treated mummy to spageddies a week before. save me from all those noisy and long waiting queues that love to test my patience. tsk tsk.


saturday: alex's bdae party with mickey mouse, face/bod paintin, and huge choco cake for all the kids! also, unc and i ended the day with a balloon fight. imagine two adults fighting in front of kids. aiyo. what was i thinkin ?!?


sunday: lunch at pine court at meritus. yes yes, the haunted one. haha
lunch was super good but i can feel the cholesterol rising. trust me. i cant face seafood ever again. it was a super duper 9 turned 10 course meal -extra cake we bought :X

I) measly-peasy sushi lookalike dimsum
II) again-one char siew pau
III) roasted duck/pigeon lookalike
IV) wasabi w/roe prawn with tons of yucky squid
V) shark's fin that was practically all fin. no kidding!
VI) lobster, one each.
VII) veg with abalone
VIII) roe infested fried rice. it amt of roe was scary
IX) the tiramisu cake we bought from the patisseur at mohdm sultan rd
X) almond cream with yam paste. yumms :d



argh! we ate til like 3! it was a lunch to rmb.
not to mention, daddy us out for swensens in the night! hahah! it was a totally eat eat eat day!
my leaning tower of lime juice
see what i mean by roe infested!
tiramisu
delish shoppe! i want my cakes from there!
it's too pretty to be eatenooo.. yummylicious almond cream.


THE Swensens treat at Thomson Plaza

Labels: :)

Labels: :)

changed my template. tho certain things are still under contruction.
i guess i changed it cause i needed a change in my life and i'm still thinking how to go about it

i need someone to accompany me. by the sea. the esplanade, walking, reminicising, and having our own escapade, a secret getaway from all that hustle-bustle city, stressful life.

Labels: :)

Fun Fun Fun
Drink and be Merry.
Forget all your troubles and tomorrow will be a better day!

Labels: :(/:)

a huge drastic major change of feelings.
it has been a really un-fun roller coaster ride of emotions.

i guess it has been done for me.
and i guess i have only 2 options now.
tho i'm keeping the other 2 open. for now.
Stansfield?orUNSW?

depressed to the stage where i've lost the ability to feel.
numb you may call it but no. cause i know i'm depressed.
i guess i rather be oblivious cause sometimes, i hate to say this but,

the truth really hurts too much.

nothing you say or do can make me better cause i know i only have myself to blame.
and stop acting like you know how i feel cause you've not been in my shoes.
so dont say things like i know how you feel. it's crap.
just be silent.

sorry if i'm being rude.
just not exactly in the best of moods now.
my future has officially gone down the drain.
till i look for the other door God has opened for me, i'm still not looking on the brighter side.

the days are too gloomy and dark without any signs of sunshine.

actually i need not apologise. this is my ranting page and i can do what i deem fit.
aargh! i'm having a major split personality with my splitting headache.
going bonkers soon.
depressed.still.

Labels: :(

super fun day! that's all i can say!
baking, getting all messed up, superduper white cheeks. yayness. it was such fun

downside to it? i got burned. now the middle 3 fingers of my left hands bandaged like some bao.
tsk tsk. so i'm typing with one hand and my left thumb. what productivity. haha.

that's all for now. inconvenient typing and blogging.

horoscopes kinda suck now. i'm supposed to be lucky in romance and monetary wise. unfortunately, i've just spent a bomb on mother's day and a loved one is not in town.
denise is sad.

an angel's smile is what you sell



i'm envious.
every holiday you have, you'll take a trip overseas, to one of those many desired locations round the world.
i'm envious.

Labels: envious

Go Dunk Your Head In A Bucket of Water.
hate you.
stop staring like i'm some kinda animal behind an enclosure.
like hello! i'm gonna act bimbo and walk up next to you if i see you and go
"you're a girl. i'm a girl too. what you have i have too! like OMG! did you even know that? so why are you staring? Is there something i can help you with? like maybe shift your eyes back in order so you can stop looking at me? i'm know i'm not beauty queen material, but the truth is, so are you."

i needed to get that off my chest.
thank goodness for this outlet here



super elated today. feeling all accomplished and definitely on Cloud9.

early this morning i met you at gardens.saw you from across the street the same time you spotted me. exchanged glances like we used to do. well the problem is, that's all we do. exchange glances and staring at each other with disbelief. neither of us would open our golden mouth and speak with each other. well i guess you're keeping yours for a good reason. after all your mouth is vital for your career.2 years ago when we saw each other like for the umpteenth time, all we did was look at each other with the "what are you doing here? didn't expect to see you"sigh. i have all these fabulous people in my life, friends, family, relatives and people i want to meet and well you know, are like future prospectives, haha. they sound like objects, seem to be really far awayway out of reach. too far. they are too good to be part of me.
that's a really depressing thought. well. that's reality for me!ok ok. enough of fantasising now. back to reality girl *snap snap* i keep repeating that whole scene over and over again in my head. haha. going nuts already. nuttier than a fruitcake. blah. i hate fruitcakes. i only love cheesecakes! yumms.

nevermind.
i coached angela literature today.doing sec2 lit brings back precious memories. Shakespeare's R&J, Hamlet and Miss Oei's Unseens with tons of gossips and details of your love life and how your husband treats you when you feel like being pampered. aww...haha. Miss Oei I Love You! Teaching her Unseen's such a joy. At least i still know my work! haha. Instilling passion in a younger one's cool beans.

"O Romeo O Romeo!
Wherefore Art Thou Romeo?
Deny Thy Father and Refuse Thy Name!
Or,If Thou Wilt Not,
Be But Sworn My Love,
And I'll No Longer Be a Capulet."

I'm so happy for you sis!
I Hope NUS BIZ will accept you.
Good Luck for the interview.

Sometimes it's better to sink into fantasy.
tho that's escapism for me, at least it's worry free there.
Lesser wrinkles for ladieesss..

still elated. positives outrule the negatives!
yea! tho i dont sound all that excited.

Labels: SWEETS FOR MY SWEET

i'm trying to calm myself down.
i stumbled upon a friend's friend's blog.
he looks kinda familiar then snap!
he's a cleo EB. freakin hot! hahaha. and not to mention, has the brains too!
that's all i'm revealing. haha.
nitez!
p.s. cousin, if you read this you know i'm still waiting for your reply on watching that freakin malay ghost show. i've no other interested parties for horror movies!



You're a falling star
You're the getaway car
You're the line in the sand
When I go too far
You're the swimming pool
On an august day
And you're the perfect thing to say

And you play it coy but it's kinda cute
Oh when you smile at me you know exactly what you do
Baby don't pretend that you don't know it's true
Cause you can see it when I look at you

And in this crazy life
And through these crazy times
It's you
It's you
You make me sing
You're every line
You're every word
You're everything

You're a carousel
You're a wishing well
And you light me up
When you ring my bell
You're a mystery
You're from outer space
You're every minute of my every day

And I can't believe that I'm your man
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can
Whatever comes our way
We'll see it through
And you know that's what our love can do

And in this crazy life
And through these crazy times
It's you
It's you
You make me sing
You're every line
You're every word
You're everything

And so la la la la
So la la la la

And in this crazy life
And through these crazy times
It's you
It's you
You make me sing
You're every line
You're every word
You're everything

You're every song
And I sing along
Cause you're my everything
Yeah, yeah
So la la la la
So la la la la

what a small world. i met janessa today at gardens market.
it feels good to see one of your own

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finally
FREEDOM!!!
yeah i need retail therapy now. deprived of shopping for weeks.
anyway it's good cause by then i'll save up enough momney for the GSS! YES! hahaha.

urgh. blogger's screwed. i cant see where i'm typing. i'll put up another post later.anyone interested to go tops and shoes shopping? kahyim?
hahah
need someone to accompany me round singapore to look for wedding favours too!

interested parties?



gmail's screwed. i'll post another time.
it's gettin on my nerves.
someone date me now that i'm free!



shit ass it's

ONE MORE DAY!!!!!!

now i'm screwed. not done with my essays yet and the place, well, the venue's like, how ta describe it? it's just like a derelict building standing on it's own and it looks like it could take some tips from pisa on how to stay put slanted. please dont let it fall when i'm in it.
sigh. anyway. to noon tmr please! then it'll be freedom like finally for me-mentally.

crestfallen,despondent girl
NP: I'm a Believer!

Labels: had a BLAST. to infinity and beyond

3MORE DAYS

and still counting.
chessecakes makes me fat, but happy.
Procrastinating now.
urgh!

anyway, i'm hating reckless drivers whom takes away other's lives without thinking. on one hand, although i know they do not mean it(i hope)but then again, they are so irresponsible. can u imagine one day while waiting for a bus and then BAM!WHACK! you're dead, or maybe half dead fr0m all those injuries? kinda scrwed. i just cant take those sort of news. people's lives at stake because of irresponsibilites. get a life. if u wanna kill someone kill someone you know so you personally can feel the pain.

on a happier note, DARKchocolates are officially good for lowering bP levels. YAYness! another healthy reasons to munch on choco-boncos without feeling guilty! haha! woohoo!

Labels: accomplished

| dee/nise |
| femme |
| scorpio |
| introvert |
| crazily loud |
| smiley kid |
| ME |
| accountinglaw |
| dancing | tennis | sleeping | clouds | teddy bears | hugs | f.A.t.E |


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