Mixed feelings. I got what i wanted for three subjects. Ok. Maybe not what i wanted but what i expected and could live with. But apparently my last and strongest subject, one that i put all my effort into and placed high hopes for, FAILED ME!!! ok. i did NOT fail the subject. it just failed my expectations.
if only i could get a grade or two better for it, i wouldn't be here right now, panicking to decide what courses i wanna take and whether i would be even considered for it.
DARN YOU!!!
i want my grade for that subject so badly. the disappointment hit me like an atomic bomb man. aargh!!!!!
i cannot stop but keep lamenting on my disappointment. it's just very sad-dening. if only it was a grade or 2 higher than fact, i'll be happy
but anyway i am happy for my friends who got what they wanted and those who got the marks i wanted. you studied for it and you deserved it. maybe for me, it wasnt meant to be.
i'm so disappointed i hope i can live thru this. i want to get into my second goal course right now and hope i'll be able to apply and be even considered for this. i hope that whoever's looking thru my educational history will look at my 0 level results and give me a chance. i hope my 4 A's for my O's will come in handy right now.
Lord, you brought me here, gave me a chance at the A's. now are you willing to give me the second chance to continue and pursue my education. When one door closes another opens. i just pray that i'll choose wisely and pick something i can be accepted for and be able to cope with too. You brought me here to this stage. Help me tide over this. Bring me, lead me by hand to where you want me to go. Show me the way Lord. You brought me thus far. Do not leave me hanging nowhere. I need your wisdom and strength to carry on. Give me hope to tell me it's not over just as yet.
