i really had it with you. why cant you just keep your damn trap closed. why must you keep mentioning my name in practically everything you do. should i feel honoured? damn you. if people ask about you, they're asking you! not me. so why drag me into the picture and mention me? they can ask me if they want to. next, you practically scrutinise things about me. what's your problem really. aargh!!!! plus all that secrecy about yourself, it's driving me up the wall. if you want to tell me just tell me in my face man, why go round the whole of singapore to ask me all sorts of questions and leave me to piece up all those bit of info about you. you have a life, and i have mine too! so, you lead yours and i'll lead mine. you dont have to follow what i do, you dont have to seek my opinion. dont ask me questions or my opinion when you've already made up your mind and whatever i say will just be nonsense and my opinions are being shunned by you not wanting to hear it. damn you la. i really cant stand it. i even wonder how we've come this far as friends. because time is a factor and we seem to be around each other at most times? or is it because you hardly have anyone to hang around with cause you're well, blah! damn i dont care if you're reading this, i hope you'll wake up and lead your own life. pplease be self conscious. you need it big time. sometimes i think your sibling is better off in this area tho he/she may seem a lil eccentric, he/she is a nice person. you'll need to stand on your own feet man. you're like freakin older than me and what?!? damn i dont know what to do about you. cant you see, we're really from two different worlds. your interests and strengths are totally not my cup of tea and vice versa, so why try so hard to do the things i do at your expense?
sometimes, dont try and fit a huge hat on your head if your head's so freakin small. dont try and eat more than you can dont carry all that load when you know you'll stumble and fall. i'll help you there but if you keep repeating it, i wont be there everytime you fall. i have a life too
i understand your predicament, but you'll have to wise up. i'm sorry friend. but still i wish you the best of luck in future endeavours.
next, why do best friends like to hurt you so much with their actions. why do they, sorry only this one, forgets you in times of fun and only remembers you when in trouble? why treat me so well when you dont even remember and care about the lil things about me? why call me up just to show concern about someone else i'm not close to and later ask for company because no one else wants to. dont i have feelings too? yeah, i'm in the midst of an exam and i cant make it, you give the same reason too, so? it's not that i'm inhumane but it's the lil actions that pisses me off. once, and i'll close one eye, twice, and i still forgive you, thrice, and i feel used. sometimes, all that shit we go thru, makes me wonder if it's to show me that you do not need me, or to show me how freakin emo you are and only need me when you're down.
damn. why do such things happen during examinations. i really am freakin pissed. sometimes, i really wonder if my life is better off without the two of you. i know i'm gonna miss you, but it might lessen my pain and load.
i'm not being a bad friend, but i wanna tell you that i have limits too. cant you understand?
