wedddings + my favourite k-drama = mood for love! sounds love deprived but what the hell! woohoo! fantasy here i come! ok. i use too manyy exclamation marks. but then again wht the hell!!!!!
you can try to resist try to hide from my kiss but you know but you know that you cant fight the moment like this! -latin style+jazz moves
i saw you again. like after eons. nostalgia struck me when i saw you. that feeling, that innocence and dream come true. it was never meant to be mine. but what the hell. love holds no bondaries. sometimes, when i make my own secret wish, i get to see you, seconds later. that feeling... je ne sais quoi. you see, you know, you feel it, and you want it, but unfortunately, you open your eyes too. and see that everything was just a figure of your own imagination. reality really hurts. it hurts more when you set high standards only to fall from great disappointment.
sometimes, seeing you either makes me feel motivated for everything in life, or seeing you makes me realise that something so close could be so far away from me. something that i want so dear to call my own, but is something that no matter how hard i work for, strive for, cannot be changed. cause things work both ways. unlike.. ugh! studies. -.-''' cant believe that word popped into my head. -.-'''
i cant say it's disappointment cause 'it's' out of reach.
those were the days when all i want is to lay my head on your shoulder, knowing that i can fall asleep safely by your side. with you around, i can be anything, do anything. with you, heaven is close enough. all i want to do is know that you'll be there for me. that's all i ask for. to hug me from the back, knowing that you'll catch me if i fall. really. bo go ship po.be chil eh soh
sometimes, foriegn words maybe due to the lack of knowledge or smth, but it makes me feel well... er... it feels like you're stepping into unknown territory and that their words expresses feelings stronger than they really do.
silence can be so nice. sometimes when i keep silent, it's not that i'm unfriendly, sad, anti-social or anything, but sometimes, actions do speak louder than words. the silence between two can be stronger than anything else. it's more of a 'i know what you're feeling' kinda silence. the connection between two souls is just simply wonderful. the feeling's great. i feel, therefore i see.
wake up, smell the roses listen and see just look around you and see how wonderful the world really is do not say a word, i ask of you cause destroying the silence is smth i cant see
love looks not with the eye, but with the mind. And therefore is wing'd cupid painted blind edit: AARGH! enough of this shit. complaining time! what else can girls do better than complain man. -as guys always say i hate you GUYS! first it was alann than daniel. aargh! i hate it when i'm cdeeply concentrating on my studying then boom! some idiot scares me from behind. guys i have a weak heart k. go easy. dont make me drop on the floor beside you. ok that was quite comical. but. YAH! i hate it. alann good ah. say BOO so calmy. then daniel, WHAT are you doing. thinking about it gives me the bejibbers man,.
another pet peeve is the stupid rainy season. ok. i love the rainy weather but not when idiots around me go " you can stand under my umbrella. ella ella eh eh eh ..." whoa. i just feel like sa-lappin' yer face man
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ok.this is now one huge roller coaster post. fom cry-y shit to damn pissed now.i'm done ok . denise go read a book now or smth. it's an order.
You're walking along the street, or you're at a party, Or else you're alone and then you suddenly dig, You're lookin' in someone's eyes, you suddenly realise That this could be the start of something big You're dining at Twenty-One and watching your diet, Declining a charlotte rousse, accepting a fig, Then out of the clear blue sky, it's suddenly gal and guy, And this could be the start of something big. It's like ceteris paribus setting. sigh. fairy tales. what a hopeless romantic me.
i'm in elaine's previous post. what else! my chinese la
so i arrived. wasn't all that hard to find.humms. they all speak chinese, cos it's a chinese learning centre!! D.HO, you so need to go there and immerse yourself in the chinese language/culture hahaha.
good one girl.
i'm feelin so emo now i've finally found the song. it never fails to make me cry. i so need you in my life now.
I know I can be a little stubborn sometimes A little righteous and too proud I just want to find a way to compromise Cos I believe that we can work things out I thought I had all the answers Never giving inBut baby since you’ve gone I admit that I was wrong CHORUS (1) All I know is I’m lost without youI ’m not gonna lie How am I gonna be strong without you I need you by my side If we ever said we’ll never be together and we ended with goodbye Don’t know what I’d do I’m lost without you
CHORUS (2) I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without youI keep trying to face the day Lost without you
How am I ever gonna get rid of these blues? Baby I'm so lonely all the time Everywhere I go I get so confused You’re the only thing that’s on my mind Oh my beds so cold at night I miss you more each day Only you can make it right No I’m not too proud to say
Lost without you I keep trying to find my way And all I know isI’m lost without you i'm Lost without you
At this point of time in the morning, I do not exactly know what made me create a blog. Years ago when this blog-wave hit singapore i thought to myself that i would not end up like one of them. Not that blogging is a bad habit or anything but rather i thought at that point of time, blogging is an online diary and since to me diaries are a kind of personal thoughts and feelings, i decided not to blog. But then again, it is definitely a great way to keep in touch with the people around me, people whom i cherish and respect. It started with a friendster blog (http://dah-neese-rum-raisin.blogs.friendster.com/simplicity/) that remained personal and now i've advanced another step and to blog well on a blog. Ok that's lame.
But then right now it's a turning point in my life and i'd like to record down the phases that i'm going thru so as to take note of the things and hurdles i've gone thru in life. Every thing that happens happen for a reason. I'm a strong believer of that phrase. And so since this will be the greatest turning point in my life i shall just sit back and let things fall in my way. Je ne sais quoi, just emotes so well i decided to use it as a blog name. Maybe months down the road i may regret that name but well at least it'll remind me of what happened here and now.
I really have too many things to say.
I do not know where to start.
But I know i will.
Eventually.
I think i'll end here and have a good night's rest. For i'm working now. My first job ever. The thought of making your own money really perks me up. Beats me but YAR! kudos to money and shopping. I do not think i can live without either one.
Someday.
p.s I think i created this blog cause i needed an outlet to really 'talk'. Esp if it's those inner most feelings. But nonetheless, the sole source was someone whom actually gave me the strength to carry on. When i'm feeling down and out especially when it comes to studying you gave me the perserverence. At first I didn't know you existed but there comes a point in my life where you were like a goal to me because you were living my dream. I wanted so badly to be like you. But then again, it's because i'm not like you that made me ME. i'm confused but i do know that when the distractions set in for my exams you were my end point. That is why i would be really sad if i could not live my dream.
You made things clear when things were blur. You gave me hope when i was down. Here and now i want you to know That it really is useless cause i'm just another person. A Helpless one. A lost one.
Someone whose name you do not even know, i think. But I definitely put you up on a pedestal so high I almost couldnt reach you.
je ne sais quoi.
deep in my heart i hope you feel the same too. but deeper down i know this can never be.
