now god has closed all doors and there's no hope. life is draggy and wasted. hope was given and hope was lost.
there's no such thing as a chance.
i cancel what i said earlier on. life has to go on. just that it's at a really slower pace right now.
i wanna shut myself out from this world. away from everything. away from life. away from energy. away from ... sucesses.
when i needed to talk to you the most, you're overseas. why. i can turn to no one now. my life's plan is screwed i know. flawed cause there's no more backup.
why bring me to this stage only to abandon me and leave me here hanging.
i need answers and i want them. ok. i'm not really shut out from routes or anything but rather, i dont wanna tread on them. and for the last time, i do NOT want to be a teacher, so please stop repeating those words of yours. anybody seriously.
gosh. my first hundred posts and i sound so depressed.o k. i am.
