just today, i realised that my life is to a certain extent empty. or rather, i wasnt fully satisfied with my life. i pondered and i had my answer. had because i knew i'll not achieve or fill that emptiness anytime recent. quite sad to me cause i do know what i really want. empty. devoid of...
on the other hand, life's filled with things like offer&acceptance carlill v. carbolic smokeball co. [1893] balance sheet
i hope i can meet fran tomorrow for a super long talk over dinner. yay! tired. and still empty. i want you.-rachael yamagata
spate of randomness. took this off someone's blog.
" Find a guy, who calls you beautiful instead of hot. Who calls you back when you hang up on him. Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead. Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats. Who holds your hand in front of his friends. Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her." thats the ultimate sweeetness "
It's funny how nowadays i keep reflecting on stuff, whether or not it applies to me, is another matter altogether. but, it just makes so much sense to me. hate it or not, it's human nature. sociology, psychology people, this is your area. i'd rather leave it to the experts.
life is just beginning and we should savour evey single moment. ups and downs just makes us stronger in life and we should face it with optimism. that's only life. some times when certain things are absent in your life, it doesnt mean God shortchanges you or you are unfortunate. It just may not be suitable for you as you deem it be. But when in such situations, most of the time we use "I". We think only of ourselves and not others, not the bigger picture not other people nor the more unfortunate people in worst situations than us. It just "I". Awkward isn't it? How human behaves. the things we do, the things we ought to do and say, what is right and what is wrong.
You're the dinosaur kind. not the fierce, ferocious meat-eating scary type, but the extinct ones. Just one mistake. One very minor small titybity mistake and the whole impression is gone. i'm sorry. i've regretted what i've done. but will you give me a second chance? doubt you will.
this caught my eye today:
But ask yourself this:Have you ever lost someone you love and wanted one more conversation, one more chance to make up for the time when you thought they would be here forever? If so, then you know you can go your whole life collecting days, and none will outweigh the one you wish you had back. What if you got it back?
I kinda like this small lil passage as it really makes me take time off to reflect on the things i've done and the things i regretted doing and not doing. But sometimes in life, when this opportunity passes, there's no way to turn back time, no matter how much you want it to happen, deep down you know that that will never ever happen, and it's time to move on, carrying and paying the price for our mistake. Be it carrying it with shame, glory, joy, disappointment, we'll live through it.
My friends, do not make the same mistake as i did. Think about it thoroughly and do not take action on events that you might regret for life. Tho' the saying goes we live life only once, i'll rebut it by saying, do things in which you'll not regret.
i really want you back. without you is like a jigsaw missing a piece, without you is like a tower without it's foundation. without you is like a life without love.
She went for a studio shoot today! so nice! and i realise i look super WHITE!
Bye Sis! enjoy your trip to japan. i'm praying maybe you'll bring back something for me! haha
i must be mad to buy like 3 books at one go. this is what shopping spree and member cards do to me. sigh. my photouploadingtool is nuts. i'm bored.
Baby that's why you captured my heart I know sometimes you feel Like you don't fit in And this world doesn't know What you have within When I look at you I see something rare A rose that can grow anywhere
cool day. boring life. lotsa pics not updated yet. aimless. waiting for cousie to come back from BKK! i'll date you on tuesday and we'll go for spageddies/swensens/delifrance. you pick, i'll pay!
saw you. but have not heard from you yet. empty. cause i've yet to approach the subject. give me strength. i'm weak/clumsy/ditzy when you're around.
now i know why the tickets are sold at the speed of light. 3 different schools deprived me a chance of a seat. argh. but nevermind. it's cool going on a school excursion for a play too just that i wont be able to watch the RSC in action. it's a wonderful feeling.
on a lighter note. yay. i'm using my new lappie. not all that great tho, lenovo has like duplicate buttons for the same purpose. but nonetheless, it means more storage. yay! and also, broadband!
i'm still not feeling too good. a lil' squirmy with that distracting pain going around at the right side it's really painful. hope it's just a ligament problem or some muscle i hurt while carrying 3 items last week. namely a cake mixer, a 3-in-1 sandwich-waffle-grill kinda toaster and a 3 set corningware. i'm muscle woman. please tell me that's the cause of the pain.
i'm still needing strength. oh. let me practice some determination
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